Me : what? That's disgusting
Text message : I vomited all inside the toilet bowl though.
Me : Then how in the world?
Text message : It's exactly how you are thinking it would've happened.
Me : How did you even bring your foot near... even near the rim of the bowl what the fuck?
Text message ; Honestly I don't know but _____________ had to wash my foot.. "WASH MY FOOT BITCH"
Me : LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
GROSS. She was drunk so it was excusable. Funny enough I've done what she has before. No excuses I was completely sober. Oh man Eileen's very hectic and sad life. This brings me to tell a story that I hate myself for every fucking day of my life.
In year 10 I was sick to the point where I never ate. I vomited when I ate - and still when I didn't eat. First few weeks I would spew food because I could eat - out of nowhere - my stomach didn't respond. Then into the month I started to only spew stomach acid. I would cry because the pain of it coming out was so forced because I couldn't take it inside of me. I'd eat and eat but it never wanted to stay down. My mother literally thought I was pregnant. HAHAH oh yeah pregnant at 16? Oh yeah. yeah. I recall I hit the point where I decided to seek medical help - when I passed out in the bathroom. You'd think my first time passing out would be due to you know - excessive consumption of alcohol. Sadly, I passed out because I had no food inside me. HAHA HOW FUCKING LAME IS THAT?! CLEARLY I AM DISSAPOINTED...
That leads to how i got my foot into the .. bowl LOLOLOL I ran to the bathroom and too late -my stomach acid was already in my throat - came out like a waterfall. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HOW IT WORKED! I was so sick to the point where I didn't drink. I was thinking where did the acid even come from.. like I have so much water inside me ya know? HAHA. Got some on my foot. HAHA GROSS I lifted my foot up to wash it as in use a cup of water and rinse it over the bowl. Out of nowhere everything became bright - I looked around I felt weak. I had lost balance cause I was standing on one foot. I leaned forward. AND OMFGGGGGGG FOOT DIPPED IN STOMACH ACID AND TOILET WATER.... EWWWWWW HAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAH EPICCCC. and I leaned back and sat down. I crawled to the door. Banged it a few times. and passed out. LUCKILY I DIDN'T LOCK THE DOOR!!!. When I woke up I was on the couch and I had red marks on my forhead. You know liek coin scratch? But the method for headaches - where your head is pinched. I'm pretty sure I showered after. Then a few months later I became okay again. Seriously, I had become so pale and wanted to faint everyday at school. My lips had become purple. My mum seriously thought I was going to die young.
ALSO I HAD NO BOOBS. I WAS LIKE LITERALLY FLAT CHESTED FML!! When I became healthy again my boobs started growing.
"WHAT ARE THESE THINGS?!?!?!?!?!?!" HAHAHAHA my reaction when my boobs started to grow. I'm feeling scared cause the doctor said I could relapse into that state again. I'm blogging this now because.. I think it's happening now. I'm so scared. I do feel slightly more light-headed these days. I'd eat when I'm out with friends - but when I'm saying I'm going bathroom I'm not fucking pissing. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL Hence why I think I have every reason to be paranoid.
CC you know how I've been telling you my throat hurts? It's cause almost every fucking day I'm getting killed by my stomach acid. I didn't want to tell you in person. I'm sorry.
The coolest thing about the condition though - is that I lose weight :D
The one time I felt pretty :( HAHA But not in a good way.
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