Okay, so I deleted you off Facebook. Best decision. Why the fuck are you reading this right now. I had a friend tell me you finally got a girlfriend. So what? At first I thought - you are being just pathetic. I don't know why I ever wanted to remain friends. How can someone remain friends with someone that is fucking abusive (PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY). I AM FOREVER FUCKING SCARRED. Who gets angry and pulls on an act in front of friends?. Feeding me Lies - False promises. WHAT IS THAT?! I don't give a fuck if you have a girlfriend. I thought i did - but I genuniely don't. I was beside him and at the moment I saw your profile - it was confirmed you had a GF so what??! My face dropped I was silent for a bit. He asked me did I still have feelings for you - I said 'No'. My response wasn't immediate. I lagged it a bit. He looked at me and questioned whether I truly meant it. I did.
I did because - it was that moment that I realised I'm finally free. FREE FROM ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU'VE PUT ME THROUGH. I feel that I now have someone.. who is directing me away from all the drama you've inflicted on me. A genuine sweetheart. I don't consider this a battle of break ups. Of course I'd want to prevail over you. But my 'love' made a good point - If you give a second thought about his life you are letting him win.
Right now. I'm still single. I have amazing friends (lol i know you guys would read this - of course you guys would) AN Amazing job! I really needed this distraction from you thanks for being there for me. I'm sorry for fucking up your sleeping patterns - among other things. LOLOLOL ;) :D
I'm glad you're happy now, Eileen :). As people say, "Let go of what kills you and hold on to what keeps you breathing" (Apparently, that's quoted from Spongebob?!).
ReplyDeleteAnyway, we should totally reschedule our plan for op shopping and catch up!