TREY SONGZ WITHDRAWAL.

On repeat forever.

CAN'T BE FRIENDS - TREY SONGZ


Really, this is a sad song. Sort of applicable to what I've been feeling the past few days.

WHICH ONE OF YA'LL GOIN' HOME WITH TRIGGURHHH?!?!?!?!

So I haven't been blogging lately. Sadly because I haven't really had any eventful things happen in my dull dull life. But because of a certain man. A real man. A sex crazed- driven to write/sing about man. I have every reason to blog. So last night -  I spent my time in the City with an amazing girl, CINDY BINDS.

WE WERE TO SEE THE AMAZING MR STEAL YO GURLLLL ..

TREY SONGZ.

Okay, in all honesty I have listened to to his songs - however - I was never a devoted fan. I mean yeah his songs were like ya know SICK-AS LOL but I never really took time to you know digest his music. HAHAHA which is a really weird way of putting it. BUT YEAH.

To begin talking about how amazing he was. I should probably start with how we even ended up with the idea of going to TREY SONGZ.

(Cindy driving)
Cindy : Hey, want to go Trey Songz?
Me : Really?
Cindy : Yeah I mean I want to go but I don't know who to go with
Me : LET'S GO!
Cindy : Really?!??! Let's do this
Me : Omg! let's do this!

Yeah pretty much a spontaneous thing.
What Cindy and I really wanted to hear him sing - 'I NEED A GIRL' In the past - I've listened to that song countless times - didn't really care for it. But because of a friend once upon a time. I've paid more attention to this song. Really, it's become a really mad-ass song. HAHA.

SO WHEN TREY SONGZ WAS ALL LIKE HITTING ON THE CROWD. ASKING WHERE THE LADIES AT?!?! HE SAID 'I NEED A GIRL' AND .. HE.. JUST.. FUCKING.. SINGS.. 'I NEED A GIRL'...  the second song of his performance was 'I need a girl'. I mean the fuck. I'm still in a state of disbelief. I believed I would've left that performance without that song. Then I was thinking in the back of my head - hope he sings 'CAN'T HELP BUT WAIT'.. AND SURELY FUCKING ENOUGH.. OH MY GOD. HE'S SO AMAZING.  WHEN HE SANG 'ALREADY TAKEN' - panties were fucking dropped. MY GOD HE IS SO FUCKING HOT. HAHAHAHAHAH I AM SO FUCKING WOO'D OVER BY THIS MAN. WHEN HE SANG 'MISSING YOU' - I melted. Don't you love it when artists just sing their classics. LOL ALSO - BOTTOMS UP - SAY AH . YAH KNOW IT :) how disappointing would it have been if we missed that?

WHEN HE SANG - LOVE FACES - my face was tearing up - because he had so many emotions in his faces when he sang that. He's so beautiful - excuse me while i go outside to cry. LOLOL

(LULZ - this is a draft post from a few days ago - re-editting what I wrote at this moment and laughing at myself)

Honestly, he's truly an amazing artist. True talent. Truly passionate about his music - as he is with the topic of his songs. LOL SEX SEX SEX fuck dude. I mean seriously - he makes sex even sexier. AND HIS FUCKING BODY. HIS MAGNIFICENT BODY. I mean, there is a god. LOL The amount of times I bit my lip. Cause that's how insanely attractive he was. NO joke.

THEN HE FUCKING PULLS A GIRL FROM THE CROWD. EVERY OTHER BITCH IN THE ROOM 'FUCK I WISH I WAS HER'
The way he held her - and brushed his lips against her - so sensually I swear to god.
HE PULLS TWO GIRLS ONTO STAGE - THEY WEREN'T EVEN APPRECIATIVE OF HIM. I MEAN THE MAN IS KISSING YOU - HE's SWEATING ON YOU - HE'S AGAINST YOU. YOU FUCKING TAKE IT. OH MY FUCKING GOD!

ONE OF THE BITCHES HAD A BF. WHY DID YOU SCREAM? JUMP? CATCH HIS ATTENTION. CLEARLY WHEN YOU AREN'T DTF. THEN DON'T PRETEND THAT YOU ARE! GOSH :(

- I've undressed him with his eyes. But really - its fucking trey songz you don't even need to use your eyes - he fucking does it for you. LOL

The performance ended at roughly 10:00pm I mean we paid $50? or so dollars for a 1 and a half hour performance by the one and only TREY SONGZ. We couldn't complain. I honestly just really craved a Chicken Caesar Salad at that hour. We headed straight to maccas. Making our purchase we complained as to how much fucking lettuce the salad had contained. LOL

Walking to the train station - we broke out in song. We kept singing 'I need a girl'

'Baby please believe me when I tell you that,I need a girl .
So come on pretty lady won't you holla back, I need a girl
(I'mma tell you what I need).
I need a girl that's goin' be my baby, so if you love me say "i'm your baby".
So fine I go "that's my baby", so if you need me say "your my baby".

Cindy : dude we need to learn his other songs
Me : HAHAHAHA YEAH WE DO
Cindy : It's the only easy song to sing - and we know it too well

So as a study mission - I have to learn 'love faces' so I can sing-a-long with Cindy the next time we pick up her mum LOL

Pulled up in the drop top Benz Hit the horn two times and you walked outside (mmmhmm)
Dress keep hugging them thighs. And the only thing inside my mind is ...

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this would've been an experience I would've have loved to have shared with you.

BAD SKIN

PUT IT DOWN ON ME PUT IT DOWN ON ME, DOWN DOWN ON ME PUT IT DOWN ON ME.

Okay, that song is so etched in my head its not funny. The drive by song Cindy Tan and I sing when we are driving. It's amazing. So my car has been in the fix for a while now - roughly 5 days already? It kills my life. What happened was - I was involved in a car accident.  Don't pull any female asian driver jokes I swear. It was entirely the guy's fault. I just remembered it happened on the night before I took the guys to Zaia. What a terrible experience. Driving a car that was quarter dented on the door :'(

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So my skin has been acting up heaps in the past few weeks. Since Uni started - I've come to a conclusion it's all that stress build up I have had. I have so very bad skin. I hate it. My skin has never acted up in this way before - EVER! Hence why I actually seeked help. From the Body Shop. LOL I ended up buying their Seaweed Range. Thank god it doesn't smell like seaweed - it's a beautiful scent though. Love it. Twice a day I cleanse - tone - moisturise. My smile is so fake. Sigh.

 The image above is me at my rawest state - no make up.

 Really bad eye bags though :'(

MAKE UP TIMEEEE (yaknow - like T-SHIRT TIME)
All I used was LIQUID LINER/SILVER LINER - MASCARA and LIPSTICK (GAGA2. M.A.C)
(NO BLUSH + NO FOUNDATION/CONCEALER ANYTHING)

Don't believe that my skin has improved? HEHE I'd rather you not but if you click on the actual size you can see my skin has its redness its imperfections. SO I am quite proud right now.

 MAKE UP REMOVAL

HAHA I HAVE SUCH A PUDGEY FACE.

Sigh. I look so unhealthy these days. I've dramatically dropped heaps of weight. My face isn't as round anymore which is a good thing I guess - but my arms look ugly. You can actually see my collar bone. I remember a few weeks back - my stomach was just terrible. It got to the point where you could see my ribs. I tried on clothing and almost cried because of how disgusting I looked. I actually lost my curves. Even right now, I hate myself for bringing myself to that point. I hate looking at myself and seeing that I've lost the one thing I was proud of. I understand that girls want to be skinny and stuff. But if you're like me who is.. well WAS proud to have curves - it's the most heartbreaking thing to watch. Even worst when you're trying on a tight body suit and having your ribs stick out. It's disgusting.
It's even worst when you know your friends around are trying to help. I'm so sorry I inflicted so much pain to everyone. I mean it. I know you guys were all trying to help me. I'm so sorry. It's even worst when I had my mother break down and cry. I can't believe I watched her cry. I couldn't help but watch her cry and cry myself. Never in my life have I heard the words '
I don't want to lose my daughter'

ONLINE SHAWPPING WORST ADDICTION EVAR :(

Today I spent roughly $500 browsing through ASOS + F21.  I'm already hating myself. I seriously waste too much money on clothing. It's worst when I don't even wear half of them. God I'm such a girl. Leave me to walk into a store and spend $100 + all the time. :'( I'm THE WORST TAKE AWAY MY CARD PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

I bought a pair of high-waisted shorts from Sportsgirl for $79.95 + a pair of wrangler high-waisted shorts $89.95. Amazing to know they both don't fit me anymore. I LOVE THIS. THIS IS JUST DIVINE! Hopefully ebay will do me proud <3. I fucking seriously need to start selling my bags.

My weakness = bags + shoes.
Dresses.
I'm not really a pants person - but I really should be. Winter's nearing. Oh gosh back to wearing stockings with my pretty dresses. I REALLY NEED TO STOP BUYING DRESSES TOO. BUT . COULDN'T RESIST.

(text)
Me : Bro! I feel so bad I just made the lady go back and get a size smaller clothing and I took like 10 pieces.
Friend : LOL why did you get the wrong size?
Me : I usually get the same. But somewhere between walking to the changeroom I guess I dramatically dropped a dress size.
Friend : Lady pissed off?
Me : I hope not !!! HAHAHA
Friend : Dw it's their job. I'd be friggen pissed off! given if I could I would spit on the clothes.
Me : That's pretty extreme coming from someone who works in hospo.
Friend : We never had this discussion.
Me : OH MY GOD YOU HAVEN'T. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLLOL THAT'S DISGUSTING.


So closer to moving to a new home I should really watch over my money. I'm still yet to fucking purchase my textbooks too. SHIT FUCK. HAHA I'm doing LAW this sem. I AM OFFICIALLY FUCKED. FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED :'( The house my parents loved and I fell in love with is unfortunately gone. Due to the owners not wanting to sell it. :'( Sobs* I even planned out what furniture and what I would do to my FEATURE WALL. YAYAY. I would've made my room the coolest hang out evar. Cause 'rents know I've already shot gunned the master bedroom. So plenty of living space. Oooh and my own bathroom <3. KEKKEE

CHIV/JOHNSON (HEARTS W/HANDS)

CHIV : You don't even go to watch us.
ME : WHAT??!
JOHNSON : Yeah we all know why you really go to 'watch'

LOLOL Half true.

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Fucking Hell.
So what I can't hang out with a friend without his other group making assumptions .. like we're going out? Or that he has feelings for me?
Are you fucking kidding me. I love this kid. But I don't see him anymore than a friend.
It's so unnecessary to question anything. I swear.
I definitely like someone but not him. He's too close to me to ever see him that way.
'like a brother'
HAHAH

I feel like giving up. I do. I don't think I will. But.. Sigh.