Fuck My Life, Literally.

Woke up at like what 7:30AM and cleaned the house like crazy. My parents have been gone for a while now I am forever the mother figure for 3 weeks. Well It's ending soon so yay?! Damn this independence business! I need my mother and father back :(  - they are currently in Vietnam. So yes we can do anything we want at any hour of the night - WOOOOH!!! I haven't seen him for one day and it felt like so long - what - the - fuck. :)

Around 6:00PM Kim Chau and I headed out to go 32 hour Parramatta Westfields. Fuck My Life!! The drive was a pain not to mention when we arrived we had struggled to find parking. 15 mins later man leaves the gym. HALLELUJAH!! We shot gunned his perfectly positioned parking spot - right next to the door :). We were heading off to visit Jason and Chiv who had been sitting there patiently waiting for us to arrive.  Jason luckily scored like 3 free burgers? hahaha cause they kept fucking up with his order.. and GODDAMNIT HIS COKE WASN'T COLD. Oh I am so angry .. on his behalf.

Kim and myself walked around and started purchasing many things. Mainly clothing. So 20% of $60 isn't $40 right? I mean I bought two tops and I only paid $40. <3 people with bad maths!!! I walked into Cotton On Body! Poor ladies were struggling they really wanted me to work. They asked if I could do a 12 - 8 shift? I think it was. I denied. :'( HAHA We walked around gazing at lingerie and other what nots. Discussing, what is romantic to do for the other half :) Great to get an insight -- and ideas. HAHA ;) OUR DISCUSSIONS ARE ALWAYS SO FREAKING HECTIC! We talk about girl stuff ... like periods and shit - no we did not talk about periods ==''

Took Kim home. at roughly 10? After shopping like crazy. I felt so dirty (like sweaty eugh) yet I still had elsewhere to tend too. I drove to his house - discussed my day and talked about periods and tampons. . I kept burping. I should be more lady-like but I'm not. I burp in cups - as Alfie said "I keep it real" CHYEAHHHH :) Roughly 1am I went to Westfields Parra AGAIN with a friend. Omg I drove there and back TWICE!!!! This time around there was so many parking spaces near the door - yet I decided to park far away HAHAHA. Haha friend kept complaining like a bitch X_X'. Probably the effects of the Alize bottle he took from my room! We went searching for a present for a secret santa - totally taking advantage of my WORKERS DISCOUNT!  Bumped into a few people wow at 2am people still shopp! it was just as packed as it was when I went at 7pm! Driving home we ended at my place again to wrap his present. Then drove him home haha.
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A bit (okay I lied, maybe a lot) about yesterday! I attended LENNY AND CECILIA'S 19th Birthday at Bondi Beach. Lovely weather it was - not too bad. I didn't even go remotely near the water. A great day i met a lot of people. Struggling to remember names. I remember a guy called Loi but myself calling him Lloyd and Eight Pack Eric? LOL. A painfully long train ride home saw me getting into Alfies car and being driven to Parramatta to pick up TIM MANTIRI so we could go to eat Pancakes on the Rocks. Blah blah he ate there already the night before so ... I suggested we go TK SOMETHING - one for us to try it and two for me to say hi to my friends :D I inisted on going home first after dinner as I figure that would be most convienient for Alfie seeing as I live like less than 4 mins away from the restaurant. FUCK MY LIFE when Tim, Alfie and I ran to the car there was this guy standing near the randomly positioned pots PEEING. SERIOUSLY, I SHOULD'VE FOLLOWED TIM who walked the smart way and avoiding seeing anything. I FUCKING FOLLOWED ALFIE! OH MY GOD! I kept scratching my head - cause oh yeah eileen thats how you totally avoid seeing a guy PEEINGGG. LOL

Not to long - My empty house was filled with faces (other than brothers). First it was Johnson - Michael - Lisa - John. Then we waited for Raymond - so we could pick him up. He had his period so we had to wait for his PMS to subside. Haha! we had to wait for him to return from the airport from picking up his aunt/uncle. I SO FUCKING WANTED TO WATCH THE MOVIE! then other plans were made. haha not to be discussed here. Just know you left your chocolate here. 

The coolest joke I've been telling everyone.

So like if I marry a man whose surname is Nguyen. I would name my first daughter Jen. So she would be JEN NGUYEN.. YOU GET IT?!?!?! LOLOLLOL GENUINE!?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHA .. oh man I am fucking hilarious.

So you read my blog ay. I GENUINELY MISS YOU - with a passion that burns (FAV QUOTE).We spend not enough time together :'( We keep getting distracted .. damn very distracting things X_X" lolololololol I hope you didn't get in trouble :(  BAHAHAAHAAHA

I am nightblind.   (really I am)  and he is not. Lights were off

Me : Can you see me right now?
Him : Yes
Me : *SMILES
Him : You're smiling.
Me : What am I doing now? *sticks out tongue with obvious sound effect
Him : That's not a hard one - sticking tongue out.

Well something on those lines.

THAT REMINDS ME! LOL MY LOGIC (on train to bondi convo between Johnson and I)

Me : Johnson I can't see your eyes through your sunglasses, therefore! YOU CAN'T SEE ME
*FLIPS JOHNSON OFF LOLOLOLOL
Johnson : Umm I can see you know that.

So the idea is if I can't see them - they can't see me! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHA LMFAOOO!!!!


OKAY THE TIME NOW IS 7:16AM and its Christmas Eve. I CANT BELIEVE I AM AWAKE RIGHT NOW!

Serious business bro!

Okay - back on topic

So my blog posts lately have been about me gushing(BEST CHOICE OF WORD LMFAOOOO) over this one guy. Okay that's pretty disgusting. My posts have been about my love life. It's been quite a turbulent past few months for myself. I've annoyed friends throughout my life with my pain and mistakes. I deserve a break. I'm going to remain single for a while. I've countless times said to myself I should be in a relationship. But I was always just putting thoughts in my head. I really don't need to be involved with anyone right now.  Friends with benefits, anyone? I AM SO JOKING. No, that's pretty fucked up lol.  I'm now officially on duty to my friends. I'll be there when they need it - as I feel its only fair that way. 6 years they've had to tolerated my high and low points of my relationship and my life.

I'll remain emotionally attached to the boy (current). I'll continue to appreciate him being there for me. I miss you :(

My blog posts have got to seriously be back on topic again.

You make me feel pretty all over again.

 fuck/suck ;)

A treacherous walk through really rough terrain (the grass was really high and it annoyed me). I am pathetic walking around grass! Especially when the grass was 30CM high. I kept leaping around it I was terrified I had stepped on bugs or bothered them :'(. I held onto his hand and I kept jumping up and down for dear life. fuck my life!.

We stopped to look at a wall? Well supposedly it's a really crazy graffitti wall. It was a bit ehh :/ he told me that in the past there was the craziest print on one of of the walls but it got painted over with black paint. All in all pretty interesting stuff. haha.

guy : It's pretty romantic....
me : oh yeah this is deadset romantic (jumps up and leaps over weeds) BAHAHA


Poor guy on our way back to the car he stepped into a hole. Sprained his ankle slightly :( Hope you're okay! I'm pretty burnt at the moment :'(

@ ANNA! no guilt :D all in good fun.

 LOL APPARENTLY HE READ THIS AND I MADE HIM SOUND LIKE A DOUCHBAG!! HHAAHA not even!! :P

I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH HIM (@ ANNA B) HAHA

Okay, so I deleted you off Facebook. Best decision. Why the fuck are you reading this right now. I had a friend tell me you finally got a girlfriend. So what? At first I thought - you are being just pathetic. I don't know why I ever wanted to remain friends. How can someone remain friends with someone that is fucking abusive (PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY). I AM FOREVER FUCKING SCARRED. Who gets angry and pulls on an act in front of friends?. Feeding me Lies - False promises. WHAT IS THAT?!  I don't give a fuck if you have a girlfriend. I thought i did - but I genuniely don't.  I was beside him and at the moment I saw your profile - it was confirmed you had a GF so what??! My face dropped I was silent for a bit. He asked me did I still have feelings for you - I said 'No'. My response wasn't immediate. I lagged it a bit. He looked at me and questioned whether I truly meant it. I did.
I did because - it was that moment that I realised I'm finally free. FREE FROM ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU'VE PUT ME THROUGH. I feel that I now have someone.. who is directing me away from all the drama you've inflicted on me. A genuine sweetheart. I don't consider this a battle of break ups. Of course I'd want to prevail over you. But my 'love' made a good point - If you give a second thought about his life you are letting him win.

Right now. I'm still single. I have amazing friends (lol i know you guys would read this - of course you guys would) AN Amazing job! I really needed this distraction from you thanks for being there for me. I'm sorry for fucking up your sleeping patterns - among other things. LOLOLOL ;) :D